~~tolong2..(T.T)~~

urgh!!

pe kena malam nims??

pe y ambe study bagaikan air hujan y mengalir lalu masuk ke dalam longkang.

seyes!!da b'tungkus lumus belek note,buka e-book,tengok tutorial..

tapi hasilnya??ambe still kelu n buntu!!

oh!adakah ini side effect apabila kerap sangat makan megi??

*itu andaian y sangat tidak masuk akal*

jangan nak salahkan makanan...

pliz!..agak sangat tidak tenteram apabila otak tidak dapat menerima n menafsir pe y ambe lakukan ini!!

"ya allah,KAU permudahkan la segala urusan hamba mu ini",ameen ya rabba alamin..

~~sott otak!!~~

lu nk hisap rokok,silakan..ambe xkisah..

lu nk bli rokok pe,silakan..beli banyak2..

tapi kalu lu nk hisap rokok,pahtu hembus kt orang n knun2 nak nampak macho depan awek2..

lu bleh blah okai!!!

wafadakk!!

~~ape kes?..~~

ambe bengang bila da org guna pinggan,xreti nak basuh..
lagi bengang bila da org masuk toi,xreti nak cebok...
bertambah bengang bila da org pijak crocs ambe y dah disusun elok2..
argh!! deng u!!

~~oh!!itu cara kah??~~

ambe:udah2 la dk main game on9 tu...ko nims,mglahkn orang bujang lak..ko tu da nk jd bapak budak daa..**ambe cuba mncri nahas** =p

si polan:rilek2 dlu..tengah syok men game kot ni,level aku dah tinggi..sia2 la aku dk main 3,4 hari xhenti2...

ambe:wes,acu coba insaf2 la sket..ko tu,lg 5blan ag nk b'gelar bapa budak..xkn ko still nk layan game on9 nims...malu dowh kt ank ko nant!!

si polan: ha!!sebelom anak aku kuar nims la aku kna main puas2..naik kn level player aku..nnt bla esk2,level aku da tinggi,so ley la aku main2 gtu je....

ambe: chesss!!! *nak je ambe siku buah ginja beliau!!**

~ mcm tin kosong. terajang pn tape

Pernah rasa tak hidup mcm xada tujuan?? tiap2 hari, dalam kepala otak asyik duk pkir menda yg sama. tunggu punya tunggu macam tunggu bulan jatuh keriba. tak tau bila tiba masanya. bila da mcm tu, konfiden pun da xtau terbang pergi mana. kadang2 nak capap dengan keadaan sekeliling pun rasa sangat hina. rasa satu perasaan yg sangat useless. orang boley lihat luaran sama aje, xada beza, sihat walafiat. tapi, dalaman?? sangat berkecamuk. sangat berselirat dan berserabut. bila pikir balik, sabar. selalu pikir positif. tapi kadang2 da cemuh hendak berpositif. dengan simpanan yg kian susut tu, ambe rasa sangat tergantung. sampai bila? rasa macam merempat pun ada. kesana, kesini tak ada tujuan. orang mintak ko pegi sna, ko pegi. orang suruh ko pegi situ ko pegi. yer, ak boley buat smua tu. ikhlas sepenuh hati. tapi, rasa sangat sedih.. teramat. sampai bila nak macam ni. takut sangat bila pikir masa depan yg xtentu lagi tu. adakah sampai bila2?. rasa malu ni sangat menebal. tak tau nk buang mcm mana. malu yg terbit dari dalaman. sedangkan luaran mcm biasa jer. ahh..hinanya aku...sampai sekarang masih tak boleh berbakti, sampai sekarang orang lain xboley menumpang senang...sangat luruh perasaan.......................macam tin kosong dikaki, tepi jalanan yang sangat terbiar................

Ya Allah, aku memohon kepada mu Ya Allah, kuatkanlah semangat aku untuk meneruskan hidupku ini.. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya, setiap apa yg terjadi ini berada dlm percaturanMU, Engkau berikanlah yang terbaek buatku Ya Allah supaya aku dapat mengembalikan segala yang telah hilang ini, supaya aku dapat menunaikan hajat aku ini Ya Allah yang berlandaskan ajaran MU .. sesungguhnya, aku ini insan yang lemah selemah lemahnya.. Hanya Engkau Yang Maha Mengetahui . Ya Allah, Engkau berikanlah petunjuk dan hidayah mu..tunjukkanlah aku jalan yg benar, jalan yg Engkau redhai.. permudahkanlah urusan ku Ya Allah..
Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim, sesungguhnya hanya engkaulah yg Maha Pemurah lagi mengasihani hamba2 mu ini...
...kau limpahkan rezeki mu seluas2nya kepadaku dengan penuh KEBERKATANMU, Ya Allah......jika rezekiku dilangit Kau turunkan, Ya Allah..... jika rezeki ku dibumi Kau keluarkanlah, ...Ya Allah..... jika rezeki ku jauh Kau dekatkanlah, Ya Allah.... jika rezeki ku sukar Kau permudahkanlah, Ya Allah......jika rezeki ku haram kau bersihkanlah, Ya Allah.... jika rezeki kecil kau besarkanlah..Ameen Ya Rabbal Alamin...(T.T)

~ i'm not a bussinesswoman, not yet retailer

today, i make something that turn me out globally. it's just a matter how i want to put my selves over the world?? haha!! noo...crap of me! but i enjoy sending emel to people that i'm not acquainted before..muahaha! yeyaa bcz if i'm talking rubbish, they just dont know me. who dis silly ha?? but, they should appreciated my effort kan..kan..(*.*)

and they replied back!! (*.~)



so..what is it actually?? i'll let u know later okai!! =p

~it's mamita

haha!! *okai, i start this entry by laughing out loud*
when i was about to add some extra dish for our lunch today, *sayur grg jer*, there's some funny things happend. it's my mamita. she was get ready for a bath while i entered into her lovely room ever. i'd just heat the pan but it's still get wet. plus the fire is kinda slowly ruffled. so, i let the pan dry up it selves becoz it's taken a few minutes to settle. hence i got bored easily. so, i've decided to distract my mamita!! =p. i went trough into her room while i'm holding a bottle of small cooking oil which it's going to wear off soon. *soon means, can only use it for another 2 times cook! it's just enough for 2 i guess* *ouh, it's friday, so papita is having his solat jumaat yo*.
i sing out her name "ma..ma...maaaaaa* in a very shoddy, nasty voice ever..just like kodok!! *and it's just like pak pandir too, because i make my voice like that while holding the cooking oil*...so, when she saw me...
"okai, just used that one first till finish, and i'll buy another one soon" it's Mamita said. and at that time i was just like HAA??
OKAI i screwed it up!! haha!!

she thought i'm going to snitch her because of the goin-to-finish-cooking-oil in my hand..(^.^) while i'm just actually entered into her room for the pan to dry up before i can start fried the vege!! plus saje2 je msuk bilik dier!! haiyohh...sorry mum!
so, i just clam up before i've laughing out loud without she even know the reason behind that...hehehe!! sweet larhh ma!! wink wink! (*.*)

~ nafsu tinggi??!

sah..ambe rasa memang ambe bernafsu tinggi..kalau tengok je, terus rasa nk buat. biar xada subjek utama pn. tapi, hati ni memang berkobar2 lar..grrr...!! sanggup ambe bukak website, any website pn semata2 nk tengok n belajar cmne cara nak buat, cmne cara nk biar ambe rasa sedap and puas hati. lagi2 bila gmbar tu mcm menggiurkan..sampai ase meleleh2 air liur bila tgk!! dang! bila da puas hati, len kali boley buat lagi. pastu buat lagi dan lagi n instead of belajar cara baru plak! (*.*)

dan hari ni pn, ambe rasa sangat bosan. maka bosan itulah yg mendorong ambe yg bernafsu ni buat lagi!! *ouh my*. so, arini ambe rasa nk buat..

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tadaaaaaaaa!! Oreo cheese cake!
kalau xjelas lagi, kt gmbr tu sndri pn da tulis siap2. sgt excited nk buat mende ni. mabeless! pastu ambe gtau mamita, ajak pegi cari barang. "ma, xg mane2 ke ptg ni??" "nak g mane??" (Mamita).."jom g tesco!! kin nk beli brg. nk bt oreo cheese kek..hee" smbil tersengih2 cm kerang msk belacan. "baek g jalan2, minum air nyior ke" (Mamita) ..."errkk??...ala ma, jomlaaa" ...

so kta tggu la ptg ni cne. dapat x lepas hajat, atau sekadar berhajat je ambe nk bt kek tu..huuhu..pastu, tgh borak2, Mamita pn ckp baik ambe masak makanan.
ha ma?? sejak bila kek da xjdi makanan?? =p...
"beli lauk2 ke"..(Mamita)...
ambe pn trus tukar la idea, okaila, ambe nk bt mende ni jela kalau gtu...tp yummy jgk!! (*.*)

muahaha!! still oreo kan kan..anda jeles x??
"ma, kin nk bt eskem!!" "bhn2??" (Mamita)..."kita beli la ma..hehe" =p "abes, xmkn??(Mamita)...
sebab selalu kalau msk time xada org mmg xabes pn..FYI, puding roti yg ambe bt aritu pn ade lagi separuh! urghh..merencatkan sgguh la kalau masak pastu xabes sb xde org nk mkn..ke sb ambe msk xsedap?? ngeee!! *ptong mood*
tapi tape, ambe terpotong mood sekejap je..agagaga!! pastu ma pn ckp lagi "esk kan cah balik, bek kin msk mknan" *eskem bkn mkn da skrg*...huuuuu (T.T)...
tapi ambe yakin, kalau bt eskem mesti akan abes jgk kan kan..kalau org len xsnggup mkn, ambe sanggup je adap eskem tu sowang2..(^.^)...
"kin bt ayam penyet ke...yada yada yadaa..."....(Mamita)...
okaila ma, upon your request...

Ayam Penyet nyet nyet!! (*.*)
tak penyet kan...yg penyet nyer piyut tu nanti..kempis cm kena penyet ngn lesung batu wt tumbuk bwang tu, sb beyak xhenti2, Pedas!! =p...tgh syok goggle gmbr penyet ni, sekali keluar smua bend ni..
Danggggg!! sangat menguji nafsu! rase cm nak nanges je skrg sb xade dpn mata! tsk tsk tskkk...
konklusinyer, tgk la cne ptg ni...............................(T.T) or (*.*)...


EH!! tucimm larh..terlepas uplod..*ley ker terlepas??* ngeee....

p/s:
1. ouh yer, credit to gmbr2 inche goggle yerk! love uols!! *erkk??*
2. mata menderita ketimbir (btl ke eja) arini..argh sgt menensikan idup. ma ckp kalau org dolu2 ckp sb intai org beyak..ouh yakkss!! xsggup la ma nak intai, diri sndiri pn xlalu nk tgk. lepas cpt2 pastu blah trus. yg ader cma tggl bau jer..wt pnyedap rasa...teeheee!! anda geli ker?? eceecee....=p...ambe syak ni msti serbuk kulit kayu manis msuk lam mata ni. lately ambe suka letak sblm tido. nk ilangkan parut cken pox ni. saluran mata tersumbat. sb tu ley sebabkn ktimbir..ouh serbuk kau tlh berbuat durjana padaku yeah!!

~ it's vintage!!

mlm ni spt mlm2 yg lepas, ambe xada pape nk buat sehinggalah ambe dapat satu idea!! yeay! it's a time to appreciate vintageeeee!! haha!! da macam kucing selongkar sampah da ambe selongkar almari tu. almari tu mmg penuh dengan khazanah2 lama zaman muda mudi mamita&papita plus bju ktaorg adik bradik skit. so, belek punya belek jumpa la beberapa helai baju mamita yg masih lagi ley pkai sambil2 tambah koleksi bju2 ambe secara xlangsung!! hehe. menarik bukan!! sangat seronottttt mlm ni! muahaha!! maka, kt bawah ni ambe nk interframe skit larh bju2 khazanah mamita yg ambe berkenan..i love vintage!! yeah!!


ouh yer..sila abaikan aksesori yg sma tu yerk (hijab+rantai) tskk tssk!!...ader sape2 nk kawin ker, ape ker, sila la jempt cepat2..ambe da xsabar nk sarung bju2 tersebott tu..sangatlarh kempunan nk pkai, pegi buang sampah pn rasa nk pkai..adeh! masalah jgk kadg2 kan..
tibe2 rasa nk shout out, kot2 sape2 ase nk dapat duit lebey beli benjo special, lehla selongkar almari antik ibunda dolu2, tgk ade x baju ke ape2 mende ala2 vintage ni...nati tolak kt ambe, pastu kta counting2 bpe riyal eyh...wahaha! seronottt!! rasa cm nk wt ombak sambil tiup vuvzuela degn megahnyerr...yeay! (^.^)

~~waklu!!~~

situasi: atas motor.
hala tuju:ke kedai b'hampiran.

tengah syok2 ambe pulas throtlle mnyak motor,smbil mlut t'kumat kamit nyayi lagu..
dalam kepala nims,tgh dk m'hafal senarai barang2 y perlu dibeli..*kalu xbeli,xkan nk pow y org pnye lak*..jangan2..

"pong2!!!!!!!" ambe picit horn..
podacait punya driver!!.mentang2 lu naik kereta besar2,ape lu ingt jalan raya ni,lu sorg je ke y bayar roadtax!!chiittt!!

nak masuk simpang tus,reti2 la gna signal lamp tu..para2 engineer da create mende alah tu bkn semata2 utk hiasan okai..wafadak!!

ambe tekan horn ag smbil angkat jari tengah.......*itu tipu*..

~home-made

semalam, masa kuar dinner ngn mamita&papita, ambe suruh diaorg singah kedai beli tepung. sb ptg semalam, tibe2 rasa sangat lapar, so ingat nk buat jemput2@cucur. pastu cari kt dapur punyala bersungguh2, tgk2 tepung tade.adeh! so, singgah la kdai beli tepung. pagi ni, da semangat nak buat cucur. dalam otak da pikir mcam2 nak letak. ada udang dalam freeze!! so terpikirla nk buat cucur udang, tmbah sayur2 skit. pastu nk buat sos die. cam menarik jgk tu. tgk2 ayah da belikan nasik tk bekpes. so hadapla ambe.

sebelum tgahri tadi, dok relax2 layan blog sekali ambe buka la blog auntie ni. fuh!! she's really good dealing with food! what aa great cooker larh! sangat meneleh air liur kalau tgk die punya baked. hias pun cantik. gaya orang muda gtu. =p. ambe pn terinspire la nak buat puding roti cam die buat. 1st trial. hehe. tapi bahan cambest tu xadala plak. susu ngn whipping cream. so alternatifnyer pkai susu cair/ideal!! haha! cam susu jgk tu kan *sedapkan hati*. bahan2 yg ambe pkai adalah spt berikut, heeee:

main ingredients
1. roti gardenia (amek lam peti ais punya, xtaula da xpired ke blm..msti da xpired kan..kalau x, xduk la lam peti!! hoho)
2. telur ayam 4 biji (ma tnya pkai telur angsa ke?? sb smlm jiran kasi tlur angsa!!)
3. esen vanila
4. susu pekat
5. susu cair/ krimer sejat

side ingredients (sebab tibe2 jumpe n rasa mcm nk taruk sekali..=p)

6. buah epal
7. biskut oki eh silap! IKO larh!
8. mix fruits
9. cheese (yg ader skeping lagi jmpe lam peti ais)
10. blueberry jem (jem kesayagan mamita sb katenyer die beli kt cameron! huhu)
11. kulit kayu manis (amek yg ambe blend aritu sb cadang nk tempek kt muka!! ngee)

ingredients for sos

12. susu cair yg xabes pakai td
13. susu pekat
14. tepung jagung
15. esen vanila

makanya, tempek la marjerin skit kt loyang. koyak2 roti tu n buh elok2 lam loyang. tuang campuran telur,susu pekat, susu cair lam loyang n esen vanilla. pastu letak hirisan epal. campak2 jem blueberry kesayangan tadi. tabur biskut iko hancur2, pastu tabur serbuk kulit kayu manis, tabur jgk mix fruit n lastly letak hirisan cheese! yeah!

n bakar lam oven. tp ambe bakar lam microwave sb mls nk panaskan oven. makan terpaksala ambe buat 10 min sebanyak 3x!! adeh! tapi tape hasil die ttp kembang semagkuk! =p

tk sos, cmpur je bhn2 sos tu...okai finish!

tadaaaaaaaa........

amacam?? agak2 ada style x??haha *sila lempang!!*
okai, sila makan....(^.^)

~ i love chick chick!! boooo

yer, pada usia 23 thn, ambe baru kena chicken pox!! wat derr??!
just like one of my fren said which sounds annoying yaw.."org masa kecik2 da kena cken pox, tp kau??" and i replied " sb ak kecik la so ak bru kena!" danggg!!
sbenarnya, ambe infected by niece ambe. sgtla konfiden sanggup jaga mereka dengan hati berbunga2 yg ambe tak akn infected by this virus. tapi, harapan la smua tu. hampir sebulan jgk ambe stayed kt rumah sista sb nak jaga niece2 ini. dan lepas je selesai smua2, ambe rush to penang for some test, which is for a job. and it was held for about two days. at the day that i'll be sitting for the test, i was surprised! yes, there's some red spot over my tummy. actually, ambe sedar masa nak mandi. biasala pagi2, nak mandi kena amik mood dlu. sebelum subuh da nak kena mandi, mmg mencabar la kan. tengah mengelamun dalam toilet, sambil belek apa2 yg patut, masa tu la ambe rasa ada biji2 aneh kt blakang. xsakit, tp ambe dapat rasa yg biji tu bila pecah ianya akan mengeleuarkan air yo!!. so, it's not pimples! sure. okai, tape. just ignored it for a second until i saw there's two red spot on my tummy. and masa tu jgkla ambe confident dat i was being infected by dat dangg virusiii!
hohoii..camne2??! terus rasa macam gelap gulita dunia skejap. and terus recall " pattula, ak rasa mcm nk demam, berair2 idung, tekak pun pedih...orang ckp kalau kena cken pox, akan demam"..."demam?? haa! demamm!!"

.............................................................................................................................................(dunia gelap)

"maa, kin kena cken pox!...huhu"
masa tu, ambe trus call Ma, lepas mandi. dengan harapan yg sngat besar, bahawasanya, die akan simpati kt ambe and cakap " ha?? yeke!! kalau macam tu, xpayah pegi la test tu. nk bt mcm mana, xde rezki"..... tapi angan2 jela...sebaliknya...." ha?? yeke!! kalau macam tu, nati ptg pegi klinik trus...xyah cakap la kt orang masa nk test nati yg kin kena cken pox, nati org xbagi amek test plak.." (T.T)
and i was like, hoho kuciwa!! ingatkan ley bt excuse xyah pegi test bila da kena cken pox. bukannya xnak pegi, tapi dis is my first time attend this kind of test and i expect some of them are already sniors with lots of gaya yg penuh konfiden bahawasanya, ak da byk pengalaman n kelebihan. selain, ak da kerja sebelum ni, so xdala masalah la nk jwb ape2 kan. aiyoh...and me?? fresh graduate wif lack of skills!! skill nk jalan pkai heels pn honcor. lagi siap ada oral speaking etc. dengan berbekalkan sikit keyakinan sebab dapat pkai bju kurung moden, plus kasut bertutp yg kunun nmpk cam sgt formal tp xberapa nk excutive plus handbag yg ambe xmampu nk beli yg sista kasi. dat's all je strategi ambe..tapi tapela, lastly, everythings perfectly settled! even not too perfect! it's okai, dapat xdapat lain cerita. ambe pn xda menaruh harapan tinggi. candidates pn ramai. more than hundreds. so, the rest, lets tawakal and doa. what's important is, i've just experinced having a time with people whose already settled down their life better with jobs and life..and also i've got the chance to put myselves among the crowd instead of learning some new things. there's must be some sweet instead of bitter aite. so, i've gotta knw someone which is very nice..she's the one that ride me sepanjang test tu berjlan selama dua ari n she's so nice by taking me to her home and treat me a lunch eventhou i'd just meeting her! dahla comell orangnya..kalau dia dapat post ni pn, ambe sikit pn xkisah, apatah lagi rasa frust. orang yg baik spatutnya dapat balasan yg baik jga kan. may Allah bless her..=)

ouh yer, so talking about cken pox ni, rm80 ringgit tunai jugak melayang nak beli ubat. da lari bajet nak belanja 2 orang driver sy makan besar...ngeee...tapela, next time, ambe blanja best2 k..

~ dis is what we call..

Sometimes, missing someone is hard to get rid. even by looking at the pictures, it can make us cry. easily. probably this is how we showed our love to them. and it is not as easy as what people thought. it cannot be describes. even by words. how it develop deep inside our heart, as it goes flow with our breath. daily and routine. as it is unexpected to be like this before. but, it is not something that we should regrets most. it suppose to be something that inspire, something that can enlighten up in our life. it is beautiful. how it creates wonderfully without even noticed. there is only one word that can suit with. LOVE. what is love? it comes from where?? does everyone has it?? back to the first sentenced above, MISSING. miss and love. it is interconnected. it is often related with each other. we miss someone because we love them. to be details of love, even it is very difficult to give a meaning, is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. strong affection that can lead us to anything irregular actions. it probably be out of ordinary. love is not just a virtue between people, which it fulfill what people needs, but actually the basis for all being. and today, when you found your true love, just say it out loud. it might be the only thing that you ever need.....

to my love... in your absence my heart grows stronger, in your presence i fall in love again...(",)